2020 seems to be the year to remember. So many things have happened in these long 7 months that it’d take a whole blog post to rehash it all. But this post is not for that. Instead, I want to share some of what I’ve been struggling with and hope that I can encourage you.
I truly began my battle with anxiety when I started college, but I can remember a few instances prior where I first experienced physical symptoms from being so anxious. Throughout my life, I have always been able to turn to God and find comfort in Him. He would give me scriptures, songs, and friends with encouraging words that I would ease my fears and worries.
Since I had my firstborn son in February, I’ve experienced anxiety like never before. We started off nursing, but neither he or I were very good at it, so he ended up losing 13 oz. My momma heart couldn’t take it, and I worked to get his weight back up. We achieved getting back to his birth weight in just 2 weeks with supplementing. After this, however, my anxious heart wasn’t the same. I began to fear everything with him.
“Will he get SIDS?”
“Did he eat enough?”
“Is he losing weight?”
Then just a few weeks later we went into quarantine. My husband did all the shopping while I stayed home safe with the baby. We didn’t see anyone, not even my parents who live 1 minute down our road. Life with a new baby was hard enough, but being asked to live it alone, without any help, was almost too much to bear. With my husband’s new job that took him away for a night or two at a time each week, COVID 19, riots, etc., my anxiety was at a new high. New fears entered my heart as I read the news and watched videos on social media.
When our states began to open back up, my fear subsided a little and I felt better about going out and visiting people. Church services beginning again helped the most. But now it’s almost August, and while a new “normal” seems to be taking place in the world, I felt an even stronger need to get closer to the Lord. Sometimes in life we feel this impression but feel lost as to how to go about it. The Bible seems like a monumental undertaking for finding just the right scriptures, and sometimes we aren’t even sure how to ask others for help. This is where I was. But God knows the desires of our hearts, and He certainly led me to where I needed to be.
I was browsing Facebook the other day and an Ad popped up. Now, most of the time I move along and ignore ads, but this one was about Bible studies so I paused. It said a “HUGE” sale was going on, so I figured, “why not?” I clicked on the website and began perusing through their sale items. There I found a Bible study focusing on anxiety for five dollars…. FIVE DOLLARS!!! When I saw it, I felt a prick in my heart. I ended up purchasing $30 in products from this sale, encouraged by all of the items I saw.
So I started my “It Is Well” study this morning, and I love the scripture the author uses.
2 Timothy 1:7 “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power and of love, and of a sound mind.”
Wow! Talk about what I needed to hear! God has given me the spirit, His Holy Ghost, that He specifically said He’d pour out for us that gives us power! Not super strength in our arms, but super strength in our minds and souls!
Luke 24:49 “And, behold, I send the promise of my Father upon you: but tarry ye in the city of Jerusalem, until ye be endued with power from on high.” Acts 1:8 "But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you..."
He gave us power in His spirit! Not the spirit of fear. Or worry. Or doubt. Or anything else not of Him. And if we follow in His footsteps, and take on His spirit, we will see the fruit of it!
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.”
As my mind began to open to various scriptures relating to 2nd Timothy, one stood out as it always does:
Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose."
This scripture is reassuring me that even though at times I have fear and worry which result in anxiety, that same fear and worry can be turned around into a testimony of victory. How many times have I been anxious, prayed earnestly and fervently to God, and He answered? How many times have I come out on the other side of my worries and fears and realized Jesus had walked with me the entire way?
Friends, Readers, I will leave you with one more passage. These scriptures, if applied right, can ease those doubts and fears and settle that stormy sea of your mind down into a still, crystal clear oasis. I encourage you today to search the scriptures, and to make the choice to think of God and His loving mercy, and His loving grace, and to put off those thoughts not like Him, and to put on His power, and His love for that sweet, sound mind.